Girl Talk

The following is a summary of a conversation I have had two or three times over the past week with different bff's...



BFF: So how was your trip?

Me: It was fun! I had a great time.

BFF: And how did it go with him?

Me: Great, as usual.

BFF: So you got along OK? It wasn't weird or anything?

Me: Nah, not weird at all. We reconnected pretty quickly- it felt comfortable, natural to be with him. We had a great time. We just fit- I feel happy when we are together.

BFF: Was there any passion?

Me: It was toned down a bit, but it was there. It had been so long since we'd seen each other! I felt like we were more focused on just enjoying being together. Hanging out. Site-seeing. Talking, relaxing. Just 'being', you know?

BFF: But were you still sexually attracted to each other?

Me: Oh yeah.

BFF: So how did you leave things?

Me: What do you mean?

BFF: Are you getting back together?

Me: We live thousands of miles apart. We didn't really talk about that. It seems to be filed under "not an option". We did talk about how I've been thinking of moving out there, but we both talked about how that made us a bit nervous.

BFF: How?

Me: Because we like each other so much. Like being together, like sleeping together. I'm nervous that if I moved too close to him, we'd be tempted to spend too much time together. Then I definitely would want to get back together. He seemed to agree with what I was saying.

BFF: Wait, and wanting to get back together is a bad thing?

Me: It's bad because I don't want to want something that isn't going to happen.

BFF: I still don't get it.

Me: I'm not sure, you'd have to ask him. I've assumed that we didn't work out because he was looking for something "more". But every time I have asked him about it, he says that wasn't it. He says it's because he didn't have the right attitude about it.

BFF: But you said he's been working on his attitude about relationships.

Me: Well, yeah. So he can do better with the next relationship he has.

BFF: Something must be there since you are still so connected to each other. Is he in love with you?

Me: I believe he is. Each time I see him, I believe it more.

BFF: So what you're telling me is he loves you, you love him, you're like best friends, you have a great time together, you feel attraction and passion for each other, and you are both separately banging your heads against the wall frustrated that you can't find someone to have a relationship with?

Me: Yeah, I guess that's kinda what I'm saying.

BFF: You're both insane. He's nuts that he can't see what he has, and you're nuts because you let it continue like this.

Me: I know, I know.