I Still See You

I don't think about you every day, anymore. Or even every few days. Probably more like once a week or so. I have no idea if this is normal, but nothing about us was ever normal.

The odd thing is, I often see pieces of you in other people. And it usually takes me by surprise, in the weirdest places:

*An old Bruce Willis movie-it's that sexy smirk thing he does!

*Watching an episode of October Road and seeing Armand Assante. How is it possible that he has your eyes?

*One of the oddest was watching a recent episode of American Idol. Yeah, seriously. One of the guys looks JUST like you, but only when he's singing! The first time I saw him I was immediately and abruptly transported back in time. You were singing karaoke to me and Max in the living room.

*What freaks me out most, is when I hear your voice. Of course, I don't completely remember the sound of your voice, but every once in a great while I hear someone that makes me remember exactly what you sounded like. This happened a few weeks ago. In a deli. In the Bronx. He had that raspy, low, New York sound that never appealed to me before or since! As he stood behind me in line talking non-stop to pretty much everyone in the place, I had to smile.

They say it gets better with time. It does. But it never, ever, goes away.