Scent of a Woman

I think I'm giving off some sort of vibe. I'm not exactly sure what it is, but I'm experiencing some kind of phenomenon.

It started with a booty text.

While I was on vacation, I received a booty text message at 8:30 am on Sunday morning. Which made it 2:30 am here in DC. This from a guy I dated about five years ago. We have what I would call an occasional, very platonic, friendship. The text made me laugh. Poor guy must have been in quite a state to resort to an ex from so long ago!

Also in Spain, one of the guys that was traveling with us developed an interest in me. This was complicated on many levels, but one being the fact that he had a "girl back home". At least I think he had an interest, it was all rather confusing and felt a little bit like high school "does he like me? what's that all about?"

The day after I returned from vacation I had to go to the tire store to replace a flat. The man ahead of me in line let me "cut" in front of him. I wasn't sure why, but it soon became clear. He began chatting with me, telling me he had to "stick around" because he "noticed me" and found me to be "very attractive". He proceeded to want to get my phone number so he could "get to know me better". Now I realize this sort of thing happens to women on a daily basis, but I can't remember the last time it has happened to me outside of a bar or party atmosphere. Typically, even if a man starts to talk to me at a store or coffee shop or something, it doesn't progress to the "can I have your number?" phase... So the aggressiveness of this man took me by surprise, and flattered me.

Meanwhile, I've been doing the online dating thing. I'm very selective in this process, it usually takes a lot for me to even get to a phone conversation, let alone a first meeting. But this week, for some odd reason, I find myself in "talks" with three different suitors.

Last, and probably least, there was the man on the street in Manhattan yesterday that looked me in the eye and said "Wow!" OK...so he was quite a bit older than me, and probably a bit insane, but still- quite the reaction.

So am I looking particularly good? No, not really. In fact, I have succeeded in gaining back some of the weight that I had lost, and I'm feeling pretty frustrated about that. Besides, it can't be about how I look, since that wouldn't explain the increased online traffic or the booty text.

I really do believe it's part of the energy or vibe that I'm "putting out there". I remember several weeks ago when I did my series on "Great Loves", Reya noticed that it appeared like I was doing some sort of a love spell. I think perhaps there could be some truth to that.

I'm also wondering if it has anything to do with the recent mental shift I've had lately. I have started to feel very happy and content with my life as it is. I'm not really looking for anything. With anyone. Yes, I have emotional needs, physical needs, desire for companionship, support. I have managed to have all these needs met without being in a committed relationship. And I get the added perks of being free and independent.

So perhaps that's the vibe that the male species is picking up on. Maybe my recent shift has added to my self-confidence as a desirable woman. I have no idea how long I will have this perspective, but I'm going to run with it.

Summer is here, time for some fun!