Tick Tock

I have quite a few friends and associates that are currently looking for work. Some have been unemployed for months. When I talk to them, I can feel their pain. Their level of anxiety is through the roof. With each passing day, they are more and more worried...about their future, about their security. Worried about whether they can keep their house, support their families. They urgently need a job.

That urgent, anxious feeling strikes a chord in me because I have the same feeling deep inside...all the time. Let me repeat that: All. The. Time.

The worry they are experiencing sounds so much like the emotions that come with the biological clock. To find a partner. To have a family.

With each passing day...the fear, the worry, has the potential to become worse. If "it" doesn't happen, then the future I want won't happen. I may still have professional success, a nice home, financial security...but the parts of life that are so much more important, will be missing.

Right now, it's been two and a half days since I met MG and felt such a huge wave of hope. Such a true connection...During the hours we spent together, I had absolutely no doubt in my mind that this man is going to be a part of my life in some way.

With each tick of the clock, my fear and insecurity kicks in. My heart flutters each time the phone rings. I can't wait to hear from him - to hear how spring break is going with his daughter, to find out when I can see him again.

It's like when my friends have just had a killer interview, and they want this job soooooo badly. And they are waiting to hear if they are being called for a second interview.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.